Weight gain

oh, i gained weight after child birth (two years after!)…

i went downstairs after my nap this afternoon and found my mother in our living room visiting with good tidings (meaning bags of food items). after i set the pork nilaga to cook on the stove, i decided to eat the 1-piece chicken meal waiting for me on the table (my first student’s class was in thirty minutes, the nilaga won’t be ready by then).

after my second class of the night, i ran to the bathroom downstairs just in time to see my mom just getting back from the convenience store with my toddlers. oh, and were there lots of goodies! chocolate-chip bread loaf, kariman and a late night staple–ice cream!

my next classes after that were spent (quietly) munching on bread and ice cream while my students practice their English. it was definitely a treat.

so why tell you this? why do i have to write about me munching on food while on class? oh, and did i mention i’m overweight?

the women in our family are the type who gain weight after child birth. or who gain weight-period. and i’ve had struggles with weight since i was in grade school. i managed to gain control towards the end of high school but that doesn’t mean i never had ups and downs with weight gain again ever; but at least it was more or less under control then. then i had my first baby and it was still good (guhhdd…); gained some weight then lost them easily with breastfeeding. my second pregnancy was a different story, though. unlike my first one, i was eating fast-food dinners (and i mean french fries, sundaes…), instant noodles, fried stuff. and i attribute that to the fact that i was working in the night shift at the time (yeah, right).

now my youngest daughter is two years and three months old and all the weight is still there…with extras. i know i’m way past the “i-just-had-a-baby” excuse. and it’s not like i’m using that either. oh, i tried the 4-minute exercise (10 jumping-jacks+10 push-ups+10 squats+10 lunges repeatedly for 4 minutes). it was great, until my aunt from NJ went back home for a two-week vacation and started yet another family eating spree.

so now i’m back to my old ways. do i want to lose the weight and get back to my hot mummah body?–of course. but i just can’t seem to muster enough will to do it. it’s not that i don’t know what to do–but i cannot make up my mind to just do it. am i in denial?–maybe. i haven’t stepped on the scale for god-knows-how-long (the horror!)…

i’m sure weight struggles are anything but new to mothers. and i think now being able to talk about it in an outlet such as this is a step (maybe) towards inspiring the change in me. sure, eating is a way for us to bond, but if i want to, there are “work-arounds.”

how did you lose your childbirth weight?